Bitch

"Pick up your calls, Bitch"
A pretty harmless statement in our rainbow times, but one which really put me off after a very nice evening out with friends.
Well I think the thing that irks me about the usage of the word is that it is used to address almost anyone and flaunted like an accessory by gay men carrying a "hep" self-image. Its abuse is as frequent as dude, darling and of course the f word. Since almost there is certainly an image of a 'bitch' (self-centred, back-stabbing, wily), why dilute the spite targeted towards a real 'bitch' to every living soul who comes within your friend circle?
If I am being naughty and pulling a friend's leg and they turn around and call me a bitch, I am tickled and happy. But I refuse to accept being addressed like that after every few sentences, and especially on an online message forum or a restaurant etc. It has happened and I have strongly objected and distanced myself from people who can't stop 'bitch'ing others. People should just increase their vocabulary and introduce new ways of addressing others, I am sure that can be so much more interesting.
Try 'Doe' or 'Duck'

Changing times

I thought this post had been accidently deleted, but it was sitting pretty in drafts... from 11 days ago...

"Us" time over, "me" time begins.
For the next 6 weeks, I will have a lot of time on hand to do things like writing regularly on this blog, pursuing hobbies, fitness regimes, socials, cooking blah blah blah. And then it will be "us" time again and all these things will quickly go on the back burner.
It is pretty obvious that I value the "us" time more than the "me" time, as I willingly decide against or simply forget to do simple things like check my gmail frequently or write a travelogue entry.
Although, had we been staying together all the time, I would have had found a balance between these us, me, you, I times more naturally (at least that's what I hope). But now, these come and go in phases, half the time we end up getting so much "me" time (now whether we do anything productive out of it is another question altogether) that when we do get the "us" time going, we just shut other things out.
Having said that, my eternal balancing act tendency drives me to a very large extent to bring more of the mix of our own times with the times spent doing things separately, but yes its difficult.

No time for fear

Not getting any time to write here.
I feel like getting consumed by the fear of not being able to do anything, specifically for my presentation in ten days time, and also generally.
This fear is making me more and more unproductive.
Have to conquer it, sit down, make a list and do stuff I have been meaning to do for ages.
This time the fear factor is too strong though. Fear of under-achieving...
Finding it hard to calm down.