Chahne walon ne mujhe dekha...., kaha jiyo zindagi
Ghoom aaya hun mele mein...., ghar sunsaan sa kyon hai?
Life. Not an abyss. Not a dream.
No thoughts.
Just desires...
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Tring Tring
Long live telephone conversations. So addictive, there are so many of us who just cannot get off the phone.
A junior colleague of mine talks endlessly over the company land line phone or his own mobile. And when I say endlessly, it is no exaggeration. This guy speaks on the phone for atleast 6 hours while in office! He is on bench and that usually means you are without work for most of your working hours. It is clear that mostly he talks to his boyfriend/girlfriend, cause he talks in a hushed tone, keeps giggling, kissing, or getting sentimental in between. I have tried to remind him at times of the harm to his career growth these conversations are having, but he doesnt appeared too bothered with all that. I'm sure the telephone conversation is a newly acquired craze, as is the person he's talking to, otherwise he wouldn't have been able to clear entrance to get into IITKanpur.
And then there is this acquaintance who goes to sleep every night talking over the phone, so much so that he just tucks his phone under his head on the pillow, and slowly dozes off as he speaks over the phone!! I pity the poor people on the other end who suddenly are subjected to snores instead of the conversation that they were supposed to be having...lol
And I am no better. I've been spending almost a couple of hours everyday during office hours on phone :) Even though I think about postponing conversations to night (or during the car ride back home), it doesnt end up happening... Addictions, addictions, we just keep adding them to our lists, don't we?
A junior colleague of mine talks endlessly over the company land line phone or his own mobile. And when I say endlessly, it is no exaggeration. This guy speaks on the phone for atleast 6 hours while in office! He is on bench and that usually means you are without work for most of your working hours. It is clear that mostly he talks to his boyfriend/girlfriend, cause he talks in a hushed tone, keeps giggling, kissing, or getting sentimental in between. I have tried to remind him at times of the harm to his career growth these conversations are having, but he doesnt appeared too bothered with all that. I'm sure the telephone conversation is a newly acquired craze, as is the person he's talking to, otherwise he wouldn't have been able to clear entrance to get into IITKanpur.
And then there is this acquaintance who goes to sleep every night talking over the phone, so much so that he just tucks his phone under his head on the pillow, and slowly dozes off as he speaks over the phone!! I pity the poor people on the other end who suddenly are subjected to snores instead of the conversation that they were supposed to be having...lol
And I am no better. I've been spending almost a couple of hours everyday during office hours on phone :) Even though I think about postponing conversations to night (or during the car ride back home), it doesnt end up happening... Addictions, addictions, we just keep adding them to our lists, don't we?
Sunday, January 14, 2007
What next?
This year I look forward to travelling. I want to make this year the most "active" for me ever. Not that last year was not active too, I had an amazing amount of things happening at both personal and professional fronts, and I went through all emotions and thoughts swaying from one end of the spectrum to the other, as also travelled places and made friends. So this year I want to carry it further by doing things I have wanted to, and not just sit and keep thinking about them.
My parents still hold their observant silence about the whole thing, and though every now and then they keep giving an indication that they are not going to "let things be" so easily, they accept more about me and my behaviour every single day, and I fell less pressurized and obligated.
So one of the things in the agenda is to call a friend, and then maybe a group of friends, over at home for dinner/movie. I have been so wanting to do something like that ever since I shifted back home, and it will also help me gauge the reaction of my folks.
But the most important thing that I have decided to undertake with my own life is to lessen ambiguity. To understand and accept situations and people around me, and my interactions with them, and to actually behave accordingly. To check my innate, or maybe conditioned, desire of being nice and thus being liked by everyone, if I have to. Do some things just on my own sometimes, feeling content and happy just being with myself, and not even aware of people around.
My parents still hold their observant silence about the whole thing, and though every now and then they keep giving an indication that they are not going to "let things be" so easily, they accept more about me and my behaviour every single day, and I fell less pressurized and obligated.
So one of the things in the agenda is to call a friend, and then maybe a group of friends, over at home for dinner/movie. I have been so wanting to do something like that ever since I shifted back home, and it will also help me gauge the reaction of my folks.
But the most important thing that I have decided to undertake with my own life is to lessen ambiguity. To understand and accept situations and people around me, and my interactions with them, and to actually behave accordingly. To check my innate, or maybe conditioned, desire of being nice and thus being liked by everyone, if I have to. Do some things just on my own sometimes, feeling content and happy just being with myself, and not even aware of people around.
Friday, January 12, 2007
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