Looking forward

"Waking up to a glorious sunny morning with scattered clouds and a lovely breeze is an experience one shouldn't miss", I thought as I walked my brisk morning walk; that I have decided to take up, as the only means to stay away from the ominous paunch, very visible on everyone in my office.

What is there to be morose about, I asked myself? You are appreciating the leaves and branches swaying in the wind, the clouds rushing across a beautiful blue sky, the greenery and freshness that welcomes you in the park and the music that plays in your ears. You are feeling healthy, you are feeling like an achiever, you are aware, and you are smiling.

You are different. But nature considers you as much its own as it does anybody else.

I looked at the golf greens across the fence and admired the beautiful grass shining in the sun. And I felt the urge to go visit places where more sites and sounds await me, each more beautiful than the other. And I thought that I will keep this vision alive and work towards it to make my traveling desires a reality.

Then I found myself wondering as to who I will have for company? Well, I will have myself. And thankfully I think I will have people who take me and appreciate me as I am, who I can be transparent to. I think that is important. To be able to live your life without pretensions.

Life can change drastically anytime, you never know if tomorrow you will get a paralytic attack and spend the rest of your days like a vegetable. Will you regret "not doing" something then? Be proactive and spend your life the way you want, putting your heart, mind and soul into it.

If you are different, how can you still expect a traditional way to live? Is that all you think life is about, living in a particular fashion? Isn't there more to experience and learn and relish for everyone for a lifetime?

I understand that these may have sounded as just words without a practical applicability if I had heard them, at another time in another context. But I believe if I can ingrain these in myself, I won't be as scared and morose anymore.

One has to find his own space, and I trust there is lots for everyone to find.

And I must thank God that he has given me the power to choose, the awareness to understand and for everything else that has come along with it.

Mundane musings

Traveling to office for an hour and a half means that my blog entries can be partly composed on my mobile phone notes.
The journey is usually boring; and I resort to listening to music from my new mobile, or participating in the discussion which is always kept on by the other car-pool members (and which usually leaves me in a lot of discomfort of having to bear the ignominy of coming everyday and listening to insensitive people cribbing about mundane things or lesser)

So anyway, here are a couple of pertinent questions that I came to think while trying to ignore my close-to-obnoxious car-pool colleagues, all the time observing them as well, and getting amused.

Why does silence frighten you? Why do you panic if you or the people around you are not speaking continuously?

Do all of us need a scenario? Do we really need to have at least a slight notion about what we will be generally doing when we are at 45? (This being kept in mind that I still have a considerable time to get there!)

Answer these questions if you think they pertain to you as well.

Dreamin' of cowboys?

A Cowboy's gotta be what he's gotta be.
If you really love a Gay Cowboy
keep him free

Busy writing our tragedy

And so the hiatus ends, and I write my ....err..
Why do we want to get busy writing our tragedy? And more than that, creating one when there is none?
Well anyway, my current tragedy is the weather here in Delhi and around, coupled with the bordering-on-intolerable power situation evrywhere here. If Gurgaon faces atleast 3 to 4 hours of powercuts everyday, Noida is no better. All the more it reminds me of the bliss that Bangalore weather is, and accentuates my misery.
But having lamented enough and more on my tragedy, I have decided to try and take all this in my stride now. It isn't as if I did not know of the situation before coming here. So all I have to do is to focus on the reasons I shifted here in the first place, and take definitive measures to tackle the problems faced.
Some basic steps to that effect include:
Taking to pen and paper in a power failure situation and write on about stuff (this entry has been written on paper first);
Making task lists to keep myself busy on weekends, so that when the heat starts to disorient you or frustratingly push you into an involuntary slumber, you still can consciously tend to something that needed to be done and pass safely through troubling times;
Buying a whole set of summer apparel a.k.a. skimpy clothing to help tolerate the heat;
And finally, generally cheer myself up with all nice things around that I tend to simply overlook nowadays...