And so another person wants to enter your life. I am actually trying to be modest, so i'll leave the major part of a messenger conversation i had with this new female friend of mine. "Such a good guy as you should be with a good girl". Ya sure, whatdya know.
But sometimes it does start getting to you. Questions of the kind "Why not give it a shot?"; "Maybe its destiny trying to say something"; "Maybe its the solution you are looking for, one that will make you truly happy forever?" and others like these suddenly arise in the back of your mind.
But i have learnt my lessons in the past. Never fool yourself into believing that you are what you are not, and that you feel what you don't. In a world where people make a habit of fooling themselves about their feelings and beliefs over and over again, for their entire lives even, this is the least you can achieve by not falling in the same trap. And so its not gonna happen again, there would be no expression of interest from my side to make her think of anything between us.
Sigh, but i still say that the simplicity of believing in something and sticking to it, right or wrong, actual or fake, is what can make you happy. Letting yourself question beliefs and explore options brings pain, so be ready for it.
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Are you saying there is joy in choosing not to know too, especially if it is out of faith or even if it is out of disbelief?
On the other hand, I don't subscribe to a 'truly happy' state. There's always discontent, and that negative energy is as important as the positive 'looking out' that makes us get up every day and face the world.
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