Have felt quite good since the last blog. Quite inexplicably, things are looking brighter and i feel happier. Now i can try and relate this to the funda of happiness that i read the other day, and in hindsight it definitely seems to fit.
I am now in much better state of acceptance; that the current moment of love is special and must be enjoyed. If there is pain or dissonance in the current moment, it must be dealt with. But if your future is causing you pain and dissonance, then it is definitely not worth it. Because the future is changing all the time, only the current moment is here and real, and one should never lose it.
And of course, my decisions now aren't defining my future at all. When such future defining decisions will need to be made, i may get more cautious. But then, i guess i have consciously decided that no decision of mine shall i let become "future-defining"; because the current moments in my future should not carry the burden of my past decisions, and i shall live each moment independently.
So in this understanding, i have found that it is indeed possible for me to control my emotions and my behaviour as the external uncontrollables change. If i manage to keep doing it, i shall remain ok. Of course, the situation many times gets the better of you and everybody hurts and cries. Only that it should not become a habit.
I am now in much better state of acceptance; that the current moment of love is special and must be enjoyed. If there is pain or dissonance in the current moment, it must be dealt with. But if your future is causing you pain and dissonance, then it is definitely not worth it. Because the future is changing all the time, only the current moment is here and real, and one should never lose it.
And of course, my decisions now aren't defining my future at all. When such future defining decisions will need to be made, i may get more cautious. But then, i guess i have consciously decided that no decision of mine shall i let become "future-defining"; because the current moments in my future should not carry the burden of my past decisions, and i shall live each moment independently.
So in this understanding, i have found that it is indeed possible for me to control my emotions and my behaviour as the external uncontrollables change. If i manage to keep doing it, i shall remain ok. Of course, the situation many times gets the better of you and everybody hurts and cries. Only that it should not become a habit.
1 comment:
Hmm..looks like someone got the salvation point. But love is like SAND, the tighter u grip it, the sooner it slips out of ur hand.
Cribbing shdn't be the virtue.it should be of come-go nature.
btw, great blog and great thoughts...
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