Home sweet home

As i listen to the lilting melody of Kenny G's rendition of "My heart will go on", there is a renewed zest and feeling of general well-being. The music does nothing but stimulate the underlying feeling of excitement, of going home after 6 months. This by far is the longest time i've been away ever.

I shifted (or rather was made to shift) to a different role within HP, in another location, another practice. The desire to leave here for wont of good work is increasing by the day. As soon as it flows over the brim, i will start looking. There is no work as yet, however that never being able to bother me too much, i am awaiting some kind of responsibilities, growth and yes, some overseas travel if at all.

There is a feeling that 9 days shall be too short a time at home, yet there is a fear that i no longer belong there. The journey that my life has begun to undertake does not take the same path my parents intend me to take. The joy is in to be lost and to be found again, by yourself.

So close no matter how far...

Someone is home, and i am in office. Someone is waiting, and i can't wait. I must go now, and nothing else matters.

Never opened myself this way... Wrong to say i never wanted to please anyone before, in fact i like to make those who matter to me feel really special. But never have i felt these sensations for anyone, never have i felt so looking forward to silly, simple, special moments.

Yes, our life is ours... we live our life our way. And how untrue is that.

Trust i seek and i find in you...

And i find all the love you give me too...

Forever discovering something new...

And nothing else now matters.

Everyday starts something new... I havent planned anything for the next five days, but they are nevertheless going to be as amazing and intoxicating as all the previous times. I want to throw in a few surprises here and there... lets see :)

Never care for what they do... never care for what they know...

Never care if they discover the love that did not dare speak its name. Never care if they turn back horrified from my doorstep and never see me again.

Because i know... i know from the core of my heart this is what i want to do.

Forever trust in who we are.... the moment is ours.